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My first 10

They say there’s a certain euphoric feeling that comes over runners when they hit that first 10-mile run.

I did today.

No euphoria.

Just tired legs and feet.

I think I’ll feel better about it tomorrow.

On Saturday my intention was to do 10-miles. I got to three. My legs were tired. (They call it “tired leg syndrome” on running blogs.)

“I’ll try again tomorrow,” I told my husband when he came to pick me up near the three-mile mark.

Getting out of bed and getting it done was a tougher challenge. But I did it. I got up and ran. The first four miles were tough. Miles six, seven and eight weren’t bad.

Miles nine and 10 were slow and agonizing.

My time sucked. My goal here isn’t just to finish the 13.1 miles in June, but to do it in a somewhat timely fashion. Why? Thomas will be waiting. I need to get faster.

So I keep running. I keep putting one foot in front of the other.

And today I got to 10. Training blogs tell me that 10 should be the longest I run before a 13.1 mile race.

I’m hoping to run my own style of personal half-marathon before then, though.

Faster is the goal. For today, though, finishing was just fine.

Enough.

Have you ever felt like you’ve just had enough?

I’m becoming more and more familiar with the feeling.

And I hate it.

The longest mile(s)

I ran a 10K on Sunday.

It was my second 1oK and my first trail 10K.

I got whomped by this run. No joke.

The first 1.8 miles or so and the last were fine. But the hills – which would have been a challenge if it was a dry day – where a complete impediment on a rainy day after more than 200 half-marathon runners already made their way up.

So I fell. And grasped bushes to get up the hills.

I nearly keeled over several times.

I saw people turning back. I saw many just plain giving up.

The entire run I kept thinking I had no obligation to finish this.  There was nothing telling me I had to.

But I kept going.

Right near the end, I came around the corner and a volunteer snapped some photos of me. (This was a great race company. They didn’t hire professionals. Rather, volunteers take photos along the trail and then you can download an print them. After just paying $30 for two 5-by-7 photos, I think that’s awesome.)

It’s a little blurry, but it’s me.


And I did finish, albeit not in a good time. But I finished.

And I was nevere more glad to see my husband, get my finisher medal, grab 10 orange slices and get some sugar back in me and go home. Covered in mud. Aching from the muscle power I had to exert to literally crawl up those muddy, muddy hills.

My husband tried to make me feel better. “But you finished,” he kept saying when I was talking down my performance.

He’s right. One year ago I started on a plan. To run. To get somewhere. To be healthy in 2010.

My 2010 wasn’t wonderful, but had a lot of good points. Losing weight and beating diabetes were highlights.

A surgery in July was a lowlight.

Today, 165 pounds (thanks holidays for adding 10 pounds back on), doesn’t look like it did 12 months ago. I’m toned. I run 3.1 miles on a daily run, usually averaging up to five. My cardio has improved.

The diabetes is gone.

Just gone.

I ran the longest miles I’ve ever run this past weekend.

And I survived.

Enough to plan another 10K this coming weekend.

What does 2011 have in store for me? I don’t know.

I want to run a half marathon in June.

I’m already signed up for Bay to Breakers May 15.

I’ll run the longest miles if it means the war against the mirror turns into a victory.

A resounding success

It’s finals week at the community college I started teaching at in August.

My students have a take-home final. Many have already turned theirs in. A couple are outstanding.

Nonetheless we had a final party tonight. Six pizzas, soda, cookies, cupcakes and a little bit of everything else.

Plus the movie “Inception” on the large screen.

So far, it appears to be a resounding success.

Now…on to the serious stuff. Grades are due later this week.

Have to get on that. Now.

… isn’t without it’s trials and tribulations.

For us it’s a huge time crunch. We didn’t finish Christmas shopping until yesterday.

There’s so much in between now and Dec. 25 going on that we also decided not to go the real three route for the first time in three years. We weren’t going to get around to it until sometime this weekend, maybe even next weekend.

So I pulled the 4-foot Christmas tree out of the garage. We put 20 or so ornaments up.

And today we actually have some presents around it.

It’s not much, but it’s something. It breaks our little tradition somewhat – we’ve cut down our own trees for the past two years, but the place we went closed after last season – but that’s OK.

Eleven months ago I made myself a promise.

I would stop shoving my face full of food, start caring about my health and find – and solidify – a reason to lose weight.

I did that. I did it well.

I lost 25 pounds. I’ve gained a little back since a July surgery that, despite being completely needless, has helped relieve some pain in my abdominal region.

But I’m stronger than I was. Better than I was.

For a reason. A very personal reason. Every step for a reason.

Being allowed to go off the diabetes medication was a nice side effect. But it wasn’t the reason.

Losing weight was nice too. But it’s not it.

No. There is something greatly more personal at stake here that, when the time comes, I’ll reveal. But it’s mine and it keeps me going.

Whatever the motivation, I did something on Thanksgiving Day that I never thought I’d do. That I hadn’t done since my final year of varsity soccer.

I ran a 10K. My time was 1:03:18. But I did it. Without stopping. Without keeling over. Without pain.

Eleven months to do the day I decided to do better, do be better, I did it.

During the summer I posted a Facebook photo with a picture of my now gone MedicAlert.

The caption was as follows: “Dear diabetes: I win, you love. Love, Tara.”

But there’s so much more than that.

My grandfather once told me that what makes us stronger is doing the things we think we can’t.

I’m going through a lot of that lately.

Three days after my 10K I made a plan for more runs. One that, because of a nasty cold and a still nagging leg injury, will have to start up again in 2011. I want to run a half-marathon.

I already have one selected.

I’m scared. I’m thinking I’m a little crazy.

But it’s just another thing.

One that I think I can’t do.

One that I know I will.

You are what you eat

If that’s the case, I really need to slow down and eat less.

I’ve gained five pounds back since my July surgery. And I am basically doing the same things I was before.

Ugh.

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